It's About Not Letting Sadness Win

I like things

  • blink-182: Hello there, the angel from my nightmare, the shadow in the background of the morgue, the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley. We can live like Jack and Sally if we want.
  • blink-182: You're cold with disappointment, while I'm drowning in the next room. The last contagious victim of this plague between us. I'm sick with apprehension, I'm crippled from exhaustion and I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me.
  • blink-182: Cut the skin to the bone, fall asleep all alone, hear your voice in the dark. Lose myself in your eyes, choke my voice, say goodnight as the world falls apart.
  • blink-182: I wanna fuck a dog in the ass.

Sophomore Year

I feel weird doing this, because usually I’m far from serious on this blog, but I mean fuck it nobody reads this anyways. Plus I haven’t updated this in a really long time so I’m guessing most people probably don’t even look at my page. Anyways, sophomore year was really weird. At the very beginning of the year, my girlfriend and I went through this really shitty breakup. I was incredibly sad about that for like a really long time, because honestly I was devastated. In addition to that, I didn’t have classes with any of my best friends and so it really seemed like we were growing apart. All of it kind of added up and I was really sad for a while. But recently, I’ve kind of noticed that there’s no point wasting time being sad. I need to quit worrying about a girlfriend. I need to be fine with the friends I have now, and stop chasing after friends that don’t give a shit about me and most of all, I need to stop being jealous of things I fucking hate. Honestly I see pictures of people and I immediately feel distaste but then for some stupid reason I still want to be in the picture with them. But I’m realizing now that I have plenty of reason to be happy. I need to appreciate the friends that I have now, and stop trying for a girlfriend. Those are the big things. I’m not trying for a girlfriend, because honestly, who gives a fuck? If something happens, I’ll let it happen, but other than that I’m going to put forth no effort. Same thing for the Summer, not even going to try. I’m not going to do anything this Summer but go to the gym and go to work. Fuck it, I just want money. And as for the friends, I should be fine with the friends I have now. I wasted my sophomore year trying to make me feel sorry for myself. I’m going to take advantage of junior year, because I’m going to spend it living by a better policy; Stop trying to make myself be happy and just let happiness happen.